Broken heart

Hi. I am having a heart that has broken into a million pieces and I don't know how to fix it. Even if I ever fixed them back again, there will definitely be scars. Why break it in the first place? As I had always said, one will never cherish when they have it and regret after they lose it. But what for? No point isn't it? There are so many things that I really wish to say and I had no one to turn to. I don't know who to speak to. We had both been together for 3 years 5 months plus. You can never imagine the things that we had both went through. There are too much. And it isn't easy to have come so far. Last time, when we had a quarrel, I will take it as an experience to know more about his character and how to improve our love. But now, we quarrel every single day. Do you know how fucking tiring is that? He thinks that it's my fault and I think that it's his fault. We can't sort our problems out because whenever we start talking about the problems we had, we will start another quarrel instead. There's no ending towards this. So might as well just end it, isn't it? I don't know if we will ever get back together again. But as long as the problem is there, he doesn't change his temper, there is no way that I will still stay on like this. My heart is aching every single day.


I am always wondering, why didn't he write letters to me? Why is his good message getting shorter and shorter? Why didn't we even send one another mid night message and good morning message like we used to? Because we never cherished what we are having now. Last time we can't meet like we do now. We can meet every single day. Anytime. I believe that's the reason why our love has weaken so much. I always thought that he is going to be different. He is going to love me like i loved him. But things ain't always what we thought. Whenever he is angry, he can't control his temper and all the disgusted words would come out of his mouth. I really had enough. Yes, I am at fault too. In fact we both are. But we just can't resolve the problem. It's tiring to be in love at times.