Things ain't doing any better. We are still the same. And now, I can say that, we are hopeless. So fucking hopeless. Let's not say the way he treat me in the past. Like 2 years ago. Lets say how he treats me now. Haha. So fucking good. So good that I believe every girl in this fucking world would want to be with him uh. When you are crying, he says more thing that can hurt you to make you cry more. When you are sad, he fucking don't care. He fucking HATES my family. For no reasons. Please take note, for NO REASONS. I don't hate his family members. Not at all. Instead, I ask him to treat his mother better. He don't treat his mother good. He is a fucking BASTARD. He only cares about his impression to people. He was never that great. He calls me slut, bitches and many others that I am too lazy to list them out. I never seen such terrible guy like him before. Like SERIOUSLY. Out of my ex boyfriend, he is the worst but yet to be honestly speaking, I fucking LOVED HIM MOST. Like what the fuck. He made me teared the most. He is totally not my type. But yet we last this long and I loved him like fuck.


I am dying soon. I seemed like I didn't care but I do. Okay, never mind. He can live without me. So why can't I live without him. But I promise, I never wanna get into another relationship again. Its time to start anew. I will throw away the ring that we both wore for years. Anyway last time when we quarreled he already threw away mine. So now I am going to throw away his also. And from today onwards, I am never going to talk to him or be with him anymore. I will remember what happened. I must tell myself, I am never going to be soft hearted again. Ever again. Being with him is just a fucking big mistake that I ever had in my whole life. A guy like him who curses everyone and even his family doesn't deserved to be loved. I should just stay strong. I will be. I have friends. Friends who are caring and willing to be my listening ear. I don't need a fucking guy like him.