This boy here is the only one who can be really cheer me up when I am feeling down, when I am freaking almost to tear, when I am bored, when I just want to have someone to talk to. He may not even understand a single shit that I talked about, but at least he is able to make me smile. I just want someone who can cheer me up, who can try millions of ways just to see me smile. He wouldn't make me cry, he wouldn't make me sad. How great it is to be him. No stress, nothing to think. As long as he can eat and play. That's the motive of his life.

It has been 2 weeks. It is tough, but still, 2 weeks has passed isn't it? It's not easy to let go, not easy to give up. But I still choose to. Because I thought of the future ahead of us. How long can we go on like this? I just want someone who loves me and understands me. Is that far too much? I don't know and I don't wish to know anymore. Just take good care of yourself. I won't go back to you because I am determined this time and I believe I can walk through all this, alone. Thanks for the brownies. But please don't do it again. Thanks.

You came to find me today @ SAGE. You bought me my favourite P.Osh brownie from Dhoby Ghaut. I remember last time whenever you did something wrong, you would buy this brownie for me. I guess 2 years ago. You bought a packet of 5 different flavours of my favourite for me, telling me you will treat me nice and good from that day onwards. Sadly, you didn't. Today, the same thing happened again. But you placed a letter inside and the chain that I gave you that time. Sorry that I fucked you up again today, sorry for being cruel. I don't want that either but I had no choice. We can no longer be together. Maybe in future there's still a chance? As long as I am not married, anyone stands a chance isn't it? I cried after you left. Not because of anything, just plain guilty and sympathy for treating you like this regardless how hard you tried. I apologise for that.

You want to change yourself but it's because you think that by changing we can be back together again. But you didn't realised, all along since  I am together with you, the motive of mine asking you to change is for your own good. I don't know how long will it take, but I believe it's gonna take years. I hope you can continue with your life and live on happily. You can't always rely on me. Please learn to be independent. I regret for not letting you learn that. My bad. Sorry for that.

Went to Junction 8 with Xiuyan today to find Jiayi at her work place. We had wonderful chit chatting and it feels great to have someone to talk to. Life goes on. I kinda love my life now though. I hadn't been eating for the past few days till today, I ate a packet of chicken rice but I shitted it out again. Think I should go on a diet. Too fat. I remember you used to always think that I am very fat isn't it? I will slim this time.

To all the men in this world: Cherish the girl who truly loves you now before everything is too late. Stop thinking that one day they will still forgive you. When she finally gives up, nothing is gonna save it back. One day you will still need to settle down with some girl. Why not cherish the ones that truly loves you?