I am dam pissed off + sad + stress + frustrated now. And my Ah Yao<3 is going back on Monday morning. I am going to be dam sad because he has been there for me all along whenever I am sad, whenever I broke into tears, whenever I am stress. He is the only one who can really make me forget everything and smile, then goes on with life. I am really going to miss him like fuck. Life has been fuck now adays. Maybe it wasn't that shit, but I really had very hot temper and gets angry super super easily. I don't want it to be this way either but I can't control it.

School's good. Everything is fine. Just love and family. Today morning my mother spoke to me about something and I cried. Because I feel useless. I disappointed them again and again. I told them I would change. I would change the way I spend money, I would quit smoking, I would be better and mature. But till now, nothing has changed.

Just wanna let people who has read my blog know. Parents, we only have one in our whole life. Partners, we still always find again. In life, many things happen unexpectedly. You never know when your parents will leave you. So cherish the times you had with them. Otherwise, you will feel guilty for life.

I don't know what should I blog about though. I just feel like talking to someone how I feel. My main goal now is just to study hard for my poly, get good grades and make my family happy. Life has been hard on me ever since I was young. But well, I went through it successfully till today isn't it? Maybe mine isn't the worst compared to the others, but after all, I am glad I went through all these because if it weren't all these, I wouldn't had learn so much about life, I wouldn't had know what kinda people are there outside.

I just want to life my life simply now. And as decent as possible. I want to have goals to achieve and have target to hit. I just want to be me. Whether you like me or not, I am never going to change my character for anyone. I am who I am. Don't judge me if you don't know me well. Surprisingly, not a lot of people understand what kinda person I am in the inner. The outer seems to be obvious enough though.

Had been having some good grades in school:) Happy. Because at least I achieve something. Hope this would go on:) Shall turn in already. Good night. Will blog again soon:)

I will miss him when he is back:( <3

Hi. It has been long since I have been blogging because school has started and it's kinda cool. I had been going to school daily and my daily grades are kinda doing great:) Hope that this will continue and that I can do well for my understanding test. Well, life has been good also. Time is passing really pass without me knowing that its gonna be mid Oct soon, then november, december. 2012. Haha.

About my love life. I don't know what to say. I just want to be alone now. Because love seems to be the thing that is ever going to hurt me again. Will blog again soon:)