I am dam pissed off + sad + stress + frustrated now. And my Ah Yao<3 is going back on Monday morning. I am going to be dam sad because he has been there for me all along whenever I am sad, whenever I broke into tears, whenever I am stress. He is the only one who can really make me forget everything and smile, then goes on with life. I am really going to miss him like fuck. Life has been fuck now adays. Maybe it wasn't that shit, but I really had very hot temper and gets angry super super easily. I don't want it to be this way either but I can't control it.

School's good. Everything is fine. Just love and family. Today morning my mother spoke to me about something and I cried. Because I feel useless. I disappointed them again and again. I told them I would change. I would change the way I spend money, I would quit smoking, I would be better and mature. But till now, nothing has changed.

Just wanna let people who has read my blog know. Parents, we only have one in our whole life. Partners, we still always find again. In life, many things happen unexpectedly. You never know when your parents will leave you. So cherish the times you had with them. Otherwise, you will feel guilty for life.