My world used to evolve around you in the past. All that is in my mind is just about how to give you surprises, how to make you smile, how to make you happy. I used to wake up early in the morning, go to your house, buy you breakfast, knock on your window and call you. Then we will be hugging one another tightly, sleeping together. You will always on your fan to speed 1 because you find it dam cold while I am feeling so hot, sweating like a dog. We will sleep till we are happy, wake up, then watch television together, having some snacks on our hands. If there's nice movies on funsion, we will watch it together. Otherwise we will find somewhere to go and off we go. We try on clothes and give one another comment but usually I will just anyhow wear and you will start complaining that I am not putting on make up and all these stuffs.

We used to be strangers, then friends, then together. We used to be forbidden to meet because of my parents. But we had went through all these together. We studied hard together for O level, planning out future together. Thinking of how many kids we want to have, how many dogs are we going to have. I remember all the things you said before. I wrote lots of letters to you, but you start to find them boring. I wrote long messages to you, you start to find them worthless. I used to want hugs and kisses every moment I see you, but you start to detest it. How do you feel now, I really wish to know.

You start to feel regret isn't it? I once told you before, cherish me. I did cherish you. But every time when we quarrel, you always think that its my fault and there you go again, start shouting at me, start pointing at me fingers, calling me disgusted names. Insulting me and stuffs. I used to think that maybe treating me like this is your hobby. Then I realised , maybe it was true isn't it?

You hated my family. (for no apparent reason) I wonder how are we even gonna get married in future. So why not just end it now and prevent more trouble in future. When I was together with you, I used believed that you are the one that I will last forever in future, have a family together. But it seems to be just a dream. Everything wouldn't come true anymore. I gave up the hope already. In fact, I gave up myself. I wouldn't be that naive to be believing in such things anymore. Someday you will know there'll be someone out there who you think suits you. Take care.