I feel guilty. For treating you like this. I don't wish to forgive you anymore. Because you will never ever change. I had been sick for a week. Coughing, fever. I am really tried. Attending programmes. I hasn't eaten anything for 3 continuous days. I only drank water and ate medicine. I am so sick. I sleep once I reach home. I want to keep myself busy so that I wouldn't think too much. But ever since we broke up, it takes me an hour to fall asleep. Usually, its just a 5 min that I need. I really hated you. For not cherishing me at all. For not loving me as much as I did. I always thought you will change for me one day but sadly no. I am sorry for making you miserable. But I really don't want to see you at all. You can be happier without me. Is just whether a not you want to be happy. Take care. Everything would be fine. It just take some time... I am sorry.

You came to find me today. I am sorry that I scolded you and hurt you. I felt bad. I am sorry. But I have to treat you like this. I don't know if we will still go back together, but I still hope you could change yourself for your own good. I had given you too much chances. Normal people give up after giving 3 chances. I gave up after more than 10 chances. I believe someday, without me, you will become someone better. This few days without you, I did miss you. I want to forgive you badly, but sorry, I can't. Sorry is the only word that I can give you now. Thanks for all the wonderful moment that you had given me. Take good care of yourself. Don't feel stress, I will get everything settled for you. Don't worry. Take really good care.

Everything shall end today, right now. And I promise myself, no matter how hard it is for me to let go of you, I will. I would. I fucking hate myself for always forgiving you so easily in the past. You are such a bastard. I hate you so much, Thanks for leaving me scars and then fucking left me. All you do is scold me. Ya, you did dote on me. But come on, you scold me more than you dote on me lah seriously. I Don't need you to live on. Just fuck offfff.

Hi. I am fucking bored now. And feeling so lifeless.  Yes, we quarreled again. And yes, over the most stupid thing ever again. I wonder if we are still together. He didn't even bother to call me or anything. And every time we quarrel, I just feel like ending this relationship. But then again, I really can't bear to. I miss him. His nonsense. This is a fact. But what can I still do? He doesn't change. His temper is still as bad. He always says that he would. But fuck, 3 years 6 months. Nothing changes. Even if he does, it's only for a fucking while. I wonder, what is his problem? I loved him so much yet he can ask me if I really love him for million of times in a day. I am really vexed at time. Can't you see that I really do? Why must you ask? Don't you fucking feel the love in me? And next thing, why must you always bring up the past and say?

Ya, I know you don't like my family. But what wrong did they do to make you detest them? Like, nothing?  What's the problem with you? I know by saying this sentence, you are going to say that I am defending them again. But hey, ask yourself, what wrong did they do? If they did, there is no wrong of you disliking them. Problem is, there isn't any. Fuck. Can't you just love them like how I loved your family? In the first place, I don't owe you anything you know? Whenever you needed me, I am right by your side to be your listening ear. When you are sick, I took care of you. When you are tired, I massage your head to make you feel better and easier to fall asleep. Occasionally, I will just buy something or make something to surprise you. All these are just to see you happier.

I don't know what else should I do to please you. I really don't know. Can you tell me what can I still do? I did my best as a girlfriend. What else did I still not give you? Can you tell me?

My legs are fat. OMG. 

Bread face.

Hi guys, my name is Jackie. Nice to meet ya!

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Thank you thank you. HAHAHA

Hi. Had an awesome day today:) >>>> Singapore Flyer. I know I am quite outdated uh, till now then go and sit the flyer.

2pm>> Zac House
5pm>> Dear's house
6pm>> Junction 8 (on the way I saw Yingyin and chatted with her:))
7.30pm>> Reach Singapore Flyer
11pm>> Homed

Okay, at 6pm, we bought ah yao along with us to the SIngapore Flyer, assuming that he would dare to take the ride. So in the end, let me tell you what happen. When we were on our way in, he already saw the flyer and was telling my boy that he is not going to take that scary shit. So as we went further in, he saw the flyer in a closer look (which seems like a giant to him), and he started crying, saying that he wants to go home. So in the end, we took turns to go to the flyer. Dear's mum and sister went up first, while me and dear wait for them below with that fellow. After about 1 hour, then we got to go up and take the ride. It's like, OH MY GOD. Shouldn't had bought him along right! Haha. But anyway, he had fun and we had fun too:)

Okay, next whole week I am freaking filled with CSO and that really sucks to the maximum okay~ I am not going to find anymore job since my holidays are going to be over like a soon only. It's like FML. Oh ya, my dear was suppose to meet the programme chair and only he was called. I wasn't. Kinda worried. Is either he did badly, or I did badly. GOSH. Praying hard that I can pass. Alright, shall stop here. Will update soon again:)

BTW, I love the Jeffrey Campbell that baby bought for me. Though it kinda hurts, but you know, as long as it makes you look good, you wouldn't mind:) hehehe.

HELLO:) I am super happy now, sitting on the sofa with my Jeffrey Campbell heels right beside me:) Had been trying it on for several times and I am super glad :) Thank you baby boy:) Well, today was a pretty amazing, awesome and exciting day:) Oh my god, I am super happy today:) I don't know how to describe the happiness man! Hehehe.

First, I bought ah yao to Plaza Singapura today. Bought my baby boy Marks and Spencer's Red Current Puff Biscuit for $7.80 only:) 3 packets:) Hehe he likes that:) Then, went to Precious Thoughts for that thingy. $12 like that. Quite reasonable I should say? Haha. Then went over to Zac's house to meet  baby boy:) Well, today's anniversary was perfect. We watched Johnny English after our work:) Wonderful :) That show was freaking funny uh. Haha You guys should watch it ok! I don't mind watching it for the 2nd time. Hahaha! Alright, tomorrow I got to wake up early. Will be tiring:( Shall update again soon:) Hehe. BYE!

Honey, thank you for today. It was awesome and I love you:) Thank you for the heels as well. I love you so much~ Please don't ever leave me and I hope, everyday is gonna be like today:)<3 Happy 3 year 6 months baby boy:) Ai ni oh:)

Happy 3 year 6 month anniversary honey<3 I am glad, to have you by my side. I am glad, to have kept all these memories with me. I am glad, that we had so much happy moments. Though it had been hard, it had been tough, but we went both went through it together isn't it? I am glad that you are still by my side, loving me. Yeah, when we are angry, we say anything. As long as we can hurt the other party. But deep inside, I believe we both don't mean it right baby?

3 years 6 months isn't a big deal. There is still a long way to go honey. And I believe we can both make this love strong as long as we work hard together right?

Look at the pictures. We used to be so sweet. Why don't we have them right now? We used to go Har Paw Villa together, just to take pictures. We used to think that wow, fondue is so expensive and we had all our savings just to have that. Haha cute uh? We don't share our money in the past like we did now. You treat me movies, and sometimes I treat you:) Sometimes when we don't have money and had nothing to do, we can just sit in bus 143 the whole day, spending time together, tickling and chatting:) Haha we have changed so much. Don't you think so?

Baby, I just want them all back. Can we? I just want our love to be sweet. We need 2 hands to clap. Let's work hard together alright baby boy? I love you<3 Happy 3 years 6 month anniversary<3